Clearly I'm doing something wrong

At left is a photo of what is promoted at Disney Land as a ginormous display of mind-bending lights projected on a wall of water. And it is. Except to my children who took turns not watching it (after sitting on the sidewalk waiting for the show for 60 minutes) - largely to irritate me. Much of life seems like this today.

What am I doing wrong. Although I have scads of employment experience I can't seem to focus on working at anything that would bring me some meaningful daily activity - and money.  I can't seem to feel well. Are my kids doing okay? Or not. I simply have no idea.